First and foremost

Thank you for everyone's birthday wishes
Thank you for all the gifts
Thank you for coming down for the party

I wasnt a very good host. Am sorry about it

To those who didn't come and notified me : Its alright ..
To those who didn't come and didnt notify me : No shame to you!

Sorry for the late replies to everyone wished me and to those who were looking for me for the past 3 weeks.

Let's start with the birthday party
It was at PLAY on Friday (29th Feb)
Had lots of fun..
Didn't get drunk because had quite a bit of stuffs on my mind and didn't wanna get all emo and drama and all...
So I tried to control myself from drinking too much..

Saturday
Flew off to KL in the afternoon with Sasa
Met up with Rod there and got to know this bunch of really fun and cool people...
Partied over there..
It was so so so much fun !
How I wish I could have stayed longer..
And no, I won't forget ELVIS...
Hahaha!
The shampoo boy from KL that I know..
Lols!!!

Came back on Sunday night..
Was so worn out..
Went to St James..
It was quite okay...
Except for the fact that I had camp the next day and I had to be present at the camp by 6..

Went to camp diligently on Monday..
Was so so tired..
And i lost my wallet !
Lost everything inside !
Very unlucky ..
Don't wish to elborate further on this

Overall,
My 22nd birthday celebration has been rather good...
Except for the fact that I had some major stuffs going on in my mind.
It was so mind boggling..
Am glad its now all over...

3 long weeks...
18 1/2 days to be exact...

Where shall I start..
Hmmm..

Alright
Here we go :

I've nothing to hide about going into DB.
I'm not proud of it.
I'm willing to write about it here because since alot of people already know about this issue and moreover, I got nothing to hide.
I made a mistake, and I was punished for it.
It's not a proud thing to say or neither am I here to tell the whole world what happened.

This blog is just a place to pen down my thoughts and my feelings.
Anyone who has any 2 cents worth, keep it to yourself.
If you don't it just goes to show what your parents have been teaching you.

Alot has been going out outside for the past 3 weeks.
People gossiping, wanting to know..
Blaspheming me...

Well, just go ahead ..

Thanks for putting me in the lime light once again after such a long time.

On Tuesday (4th March), I had a talk with my direct superior at camp...
He tried to help me but there was only so much he could do as this matter of mine had already escalated all the way up to the other superiors in the unit...

So all the officers came to a common consensus, to put me into DB for 20 days.
I was hand cuffed and brought to DB instantaneously.

But thanks to Tommy, I was able to contact a few of my close friends and my parents to inform them of this matter.

Thanks Tommy boy, you helped me alot!

My first week inside DB was very bad.
I was yelled at, screamed at, the very moment I reached.
I was put into my own cell but luckily for me I had my own cell and it was the bigger cell compared to the others..
Just like a condo in orchard road!
Lol!

I was missing everyone.
My family, my friends.

It was so tough for me to the point where I even broke down and cried.
It was very tormenting to me.
Not being able to talk to anyone, not being able to contact anyone, not being able to see my family and friends, not being able to know what time it was etc.

And if i were to use the word sad or miserable to describe how I was feeling back then, it would be an understatement.

After the first few days when I managed to calm down and come to terms with myself about being there..
I started to think..
Think about what I had done..
Reflected on myself.
What have I acheived the past 22 years of my life?
Nothing.

I had nothing to my name, nothing to my achievements.
Is it a good thing?

Definately not.

After the first week,
On a Monday, I was told that I had visitors.
I went over to the visiting room and I saw my parents and my brother.
They brought an instant smile to my face.
I could only talk to them via the phone over there and there was to be no physical contact, and to be sure of that, they had this plastic see-thru divider between my family and I.

The moment I sat down and picked up the phone, I cried.
I've never in my life wanted to hear my father's voice so much.
I didnt have the courage to look him in the eye to talk to him, I was ashamed of myself, for the mistake which I had made.
Then my brother came to the phone and I cried louder.
The kind of things he told me just made me cry more..
Tears flowed fown from my eyes like a damaged tap...
Then it was my mother..

I saw the look all of them gave me..
The look of disappointment, the look of care and concern..

After the time was up and I had to hang up the phone..
I tried to be strong and wave good bye to them..

Slowly slowly, the second week passed ...

As soon as the third week came..
I was so happy that I was going to be released during the weekend..

Before I know it..
The weekend came and I am here now typing this.

I've learned alot during the past 18 days.
More than what I would have learned outside.

I took alot of things for granted in life.
I didn't know how to treasure whatever I had until when I was stripped of everything for that 18 days, only then I knew that I've taken for granted alot of things.
Its not just my family, but more to that.

While I was inside..
I thought about alot of things.
My future is one of them.

Where do I see myself in 10 years down the road?

I'm already 22 and I'm going to ORD at the end of this year.
What are my plans?
The big society is out there waiting for me.
Continue working as a customer service associate and earn 1.3K a month like what a student on holiday would earn and be contented with it and feed myself with that amount?
No way.
Not that I despise anyone earning that amount of money or whatsoever, but its just that 13K isnt going to support the kind of lifestyle which I want to have.

And I myself know that I have what it takes to do better than that.

There were alot more things which I have thought of inside.
Of which , I'm unable to pen it all down at one moment.

I committed a stupid stupid mistake and I was punished for it .

Well
I'm just very very glad and happy to be back now.

To all my friends:

Thank you girls for showing your concern and for trying to keep it a secret for me.
I really appreciate it.
You have no idea how much I miss each one of you.
Words cannot express how much I miss you guys.
You guys are really really very veyr important to me.
Can't wait to see all of you tonight!
Hugs!